Easter

 I believe the kids had a pretty good Easter this year. Nana and Trent came down to help out with the house for the weekend. On Friday I let them decorate eggs while we worked on the yard. I was able to snap a few pictures. The Easter bunny was barely able to make it, he was pretty tired. We even were able to stop by the Allred's for the cousin's egg hunt (I believe this will be our last).

Crazy Busy

Life has been crazy around here lately. We are trying to get the house all in order to get it up for sale and hopefully moving this summer.I just want to know who snuck in all the crap I am going through and when did they do it?!?! I can't believe how much we have accumulated over the past however many years we have lived in this house. We are getting there and I am getting SO excited and ready. I have my moments of sadness and doubt, but then I get hit over the head with a big moment of "Hey stupid, you are moving in the right direction." I know the draw backs of leaving don't even come close to the benefits of moving. I am so ready to move forward. I am tired of my sad, bitter and lonely times (granted they aren't all that often anymore, but I think the loneliness is the worst). I can't believe how much my outlook on life has changed in the past year. I have learned many hard and humbling lessons. My faith has been shaken to it's core and I struggle to get it back and keep it afloat. I realize it must mostly be pride in my way, but it is hard no matter how much I pray. I guess sometimes when we feel so utterly abandoned by everyone including God and religion, the two things I always thought I could lean on, it is hard. I am grateful my kids are healing and I see their happy selves coming back through. I am grateful for the help family has given to us through this hard time and the help they continue to give and we get ready to move on. I have come to realize that I have to not care what people think about me, especially those who don't know what we are going through and as other spread lies that hurt deeply. I just have to be confident in who I am and in my journey in life and know that I am doing my best, despite how meager it is. I am trying hard not to judge, for I have not walked in others shoes. They are probably doing the best they can too, thank goodness I am not the one in charge of judgement. All I can do is try to create a healthy family and home. I look forward to being done sorting through the piles and piles of junk we have in this house, finishing the many projects, and getting the house on the market.

Noah's Competition

We went to ABQ for a dance competition for Little Man last weekend. I was pretty fun to watch all the dancing and Noah's dance the most (of course). It did get long and overwhelming, so we ditched out for a few hours and went to the Melting Pot. The kids loved it. Unfortunately Harley ended up having a stomach bug while we were there and was sick that night. Noah's group did great. They took second in Hip Hop for the 9-10 year old and scored a Gold Medal.They took 8th overall for all the groups entered in any of the advanced dance categories of any style. We are proud of him. Harley wants to do it next year. We also get to look forward to another one in a few weeks.

Noah's Birthday

Noah had a great Birthday this year. Three days of partying! ON Saturday we took two of his friends, Gunn and Cade, to see "The Lorax" and the for some Coldstone. On Sunday we had a family party at Mammy and Pappy's house. It is always so much fun to get with everyone. He was spoiled with great presents, had stir-fry, egg rolls, homemade egg drop soup and best of all a red velvet and cookie dough Coldstone cake. Since most of his partying was done before his birthday and Monday's are insane at our house, we decided to fill his room with balloons (he has an obsession with balloons right now). Harley and Scott filled them up and transported them home, this took a couple of trips. When we were filling his room up they kept on bursting. I couldn't quit laughing. He woke up one time and I was able to get him back to sleep quickly. The second time, after about five "gun shots" went off and woke him up again I tried to get him back to sleep. I just couldn't quit laughing long enough though, and that only woke him up more. At least it was officially his birthday at that point. He had a great day.

UGH!!

I just have one thing to say...Health Insurance and Medical bills!! I don't believe I need to say more. I don't think I do. Everyone gets it. I just hope my hubby can handle it. The stress is making his blood pressure crazy and the doctor is worried he is going to have a heart attack or stroke.

Refiguring Out Life

We are working on new routines, new cooking, and pretty much a new style of life. We are trying to figure out Scott's food allergies which are, oh let me see, everything. We have taken things out and decided to try his beloved cheese on Sunday. It didn't work out so well, I am still waiting to see how cheddar is. So it is looking like dairy will be out. I am pretty sure wheat is going to be out, just from looking at the past. We know apples aren't good, but will try it in the juice form to see. Hopefully that works out because he is limited on drinks and doesn't love water all the time. I bet oatmeal is out too. I really hope eggs are ok. I am learning how to cook all over again and everything from scratch. This isn't the easiest with my crazy schedule lately but we are making it work. Thank goodness I found a great website that has gluten and dairy free recipes. They also give alternatives for eggs. The two recipes we have tried so far have been a hit. so here we go into yet another adventure of life!

Still Kicking

We are still alive and kicking. I am not sure how good I will be at this for a bit. I am low on any extra energy. We are dealing with a down right now, taking it day by day. I still head to Albuquerque once a week, with no signs of slowing. Harley is now going twice a month with us. We are trying to find a family counselor here in town. I am constantly meeting with the school to help Noah out the best we can.He is very angry at this point. I let him beat me up with pillows last night to try and help get his anger towards me out.  I am trying to work out and eat better, but let's face it candy and bed sound so much better for rushed of energy and hard crashes. I know healthy. We just found out that Scott is pretty much allergic to everything, but not dogs. We have to see how milk, wheat, oats, and eggs whites bother Scott. So a new menu to eliminate these and introduce them to see if they bother him or not needs to be made up. This will be interesting. So we are more insane then ever, if that is possible. Hopefully life will get a sense of normal back.