Why is it

Why is it so hard to feel like we have it together? Sometimes I feel OK with where I'm at, but right now I feel like a run away train barreling down the tracks with no stopping in sight. My house is in complete shams, how it got there I don't know. I NEED to work out at least 4 times a week, which is not always the easiest thing to fit in when your life is out of control. My kids asked their Dad this morning "Why is Mom mean all the time". I will admit there really is not a nice bone in my body this week, but the kids are out of control too. I can't believe how irritating they are being. I really feel like I am losing it and there is no coming back this time. Last night I felt like being hauled off to a mental hospital for some R&R. Will I every get some semblance of order in my life? Will I feel like I have control over anything? Probably not. Maybe I can fake the nice till I make it. Well off to work out and try to clean my house that is hanging on by a nail.