Can we already be here

I can't believe how quickly my kids are growing up. Last week Harley came home and informed me that she was asked out twice by a boy that day. She kept turning him down. I love that the thought of it repulses her. I was so not that way. My first "boyfriend" was in fourth grade. We went out for maybe a week. Didn't talk the whole time and I broke up with him for who knows what reason. Then he was my next boyfriend again in sixth grade and we held hands at Connie Mack and soon broke up after that awkward moment. I am thankful she like to talk to about these things. I hope that we can keep an open relationship. The second we don't I will be worried that she is not doing what she should. Oh, and I must add, Scott freaked out at the thought of a boy asking his baby girl out. He was not a happy camper. I love it, but it cracks me up too.

How come?

I have a lot of how comes running through my head, but I will focus on one. How come it is SOOO hard to motivate myself to work out. Then when I do I feel like a rock star. But then it is hard to do it again the next day. Why can't it be as addicting to me as it was in High School. Maybe not to that extreme, 2 to 3 workouts a day, but at least one. I realize that I have so much more to fill my life now and working out was my escape then. I am hoping to get back to working out faithfully, but motivation is something I severely lack. I'm hoping by the New year I will be ready to fork out the money for the gym and go with my friend at 4:30 in the morning. I know crazy, but I am way excited to. I know crazy. I just have to be ready to pay. I am making myself work out so many times a week at home and hopefully start getting up to do it at 4:30 at home. If I can prove to myself I will do it here, then it will be worth the money for the gym. Oh if only I would have appreciated my body before I had kids and didn't find every fault disgusting. I guess that is what happens when you are the biggest sister and have skinny, rockin' bodied sisters.

Scary Cute

I started a new blog and a shop on Etsy http://scarycute.etsy.com . I hope it works if not, I'll have a stock pile of presents. I'm starting small and I'll see how it goes from there. Let me know what you think. Any input will be helpful, I can handle the truth (if it's good and if not lie, j/k). I decided to do things I wouldn't mind keeping and could give if it doesn't work out. My luck it won't, but it's worth a try.

Getting in touch with my creative side

Ok so there is not much of a creative side, but it will have to do. I have a great copy and make my own side, which feels creative to me. I am getting presents and things for myself done and here is a look at a few things I've been doing. I am in love with the chipboard word album books right now. I have seen many done and like few though. I have seen them premade on etsy selling for $35 and think it is crazy because they aren't as cute as I'd think they'd be for that much. So I will take what they have done and improve it to my liking. I also have made a nursing blanket for a friend of mine, which they are quite easy. I have forgotten how much I love to sew and put fabrics together. I think 90% of the fun for me is putting things together. There is something about taking fabrics, papers, or embellishments and mixing them up and pairing them to get a result you might not have seen in the first place. I know it sounds stupid, but I always wanted to be artistic and that was not a trait I was given, so this fills the void. I really need to get my sewing machine tuned up and quilting again. It is nice to take a little me time and feel creative, no matter how small it might be. Now if only I could get paid to do it, that would be perfect.

Yes, Freedom

THE KIDS ARE BACK IN SCHOOL!!!! YES! It is crazy that I can love summer and weekends so much, but having sick kids home is a completely different story. I am glad to have a little peace and quiet, time to clean and let it stay clean for more then a minute, and the ability to run errands. I still am praying in the back of my mind that they stay well and stay at school. I have to run Harley some more cough syrup soon, but that is no biggie, except having to get ready when I am getting a lot further on my house then I thought I would. It is good to be back on schedule. Now to catch back up and get my growing list of things accomplished.