Seeing Colors

I have been seeing many colors in the past two days. It all started out with seeing red, and I mean blood red. It faded away and returned this morning in more of a bright Fuchsia tone, not totally red but a hue of it. After some time I started to see blue, a grey blue. It is amazing all the colors we can see and that the seeing red really stems from the deep down blueish-grey that is really at the root of it all. Then if we are no careful the black begins to sneak its way in.

It seems these days we are fighting off the black more often then not at our house. It can so easily envelope us as we go through our trials. We tug and pull and try and swim our way through at times. Some days all it takes is a little breeze to blow it away and others seem to surround you no matter how frantically you try and keep the black away. This year is full of trials around here, and in some respects I know exactly what to do and in others I am in complete confusion and loss at how to handle what is thrown at me and my loved ones. As a parent we try to set the example of how to handle situations and turn to our Heavenly Father for help. We have to show patience in getting the answers we need, but it is hard at times. We long to make it all well and happy and safe, but that truly is not our reality raising a family today. It can all seem a bit overwhelming to fight off the blackness that can so easily engulf us. As I have struggled with this today a thought popped into my head, maybe it is just opening our eyes to let the light in is all it takes. Enjoy all the beautiful colors that come with the black. There is beauty in the blueish-grey, the red, the fuchsia and every other color out there we see (or feel). Because if we did not feel these things we can not grow and become stronger. That just doesn't mean I have to like it, but I can grow from it and enjoy the rainbow that will eventually make it's way back through.

WAHOO!!!

Only a half a day of school left and no lunch to pack tomorrow!!!!! Just thought everyone would like to celebrate. Maybe I will get around to posting end of the year pictures, but I promise nothing

Our Little Misty

We have had our new puppy for a little while now and the kids (and me) are loving her. With that being said I must admit we have a knack for picking out stubborn dogs. She is determined and not the easiest to potty train so far. I keep telling myself that she is still pretty young and we need to have patients. How much the kids love her is worth it though. She loves them a ton already too. She whines while they are at school and lays by Noah's bed waiting for him to get home or under Harley's bed sometimes. She is going to be a great friend to the kids, just like I remember my dobby Angie being to us when we were growing up. I just wonder if she will realize that she is not a lap dog when she is fully grown, because she likes to be all up in your business and having company at all times.

Noah's Birthday

So I am over a month behind on posting this, but at least I am finally doing it. Noah turned ten this year. He was so excited. All he really wanted was a camera, oh and a new Pokemon game. Scott had to work the night of Noah's birthday so he opened a his presents before Scott left. He was thrilled to get his camera and some new digs for the summer.The kids and I celebrated a little at the house that night with giant cupcakes. His family party would be on Sunday with a Coldstone Red velvet and Cookie Dough Cake, and dinner too. It was a great birthday and he is having a blast snapping pictures of the most random things.

A new addition to the family

We just randomly decided to add another member to the family today. OK not so randomly, there is a purpose behind our thinking. We are going to add another girl to the family. We will get her Easter weekend, hopefully. And who are we adding you might ask. A new Doberman Pinscher puppy. We are having my sister go and check out the family she comes from and her personality to make sure she is a good fit with the family. She currently lives in Utah. We think the puppy we are getting is the grey on with the face looking out at us (not totally sure on that though). She is the owners favorite of the litter, so that is a good sign. We decided to get a Dobby for several reasons. One being Noah has been having nightmares lately and we hoped that a bigger dog would help out, Scott like the protection of one, I miss running with my old dobby Mercedes, and I said the only way we can ever get another pet is if it is a Doberman. So there we have it. The next month will be torture waiting for new arrival for the kids.

It's Amazing

It's amazing how life comes at us throwing trials in our way. The way we take these trials can really build our character or destroy us. As of late I have rediscovered the things that are most precious to me (My Family, the gospel, Heavenly Fathers tender love, what peace the atonement can give in our loves, the love Jesus has for us all, the power of prayer, the comfort of scriptures, priesthood blessings, blessing of the temple). It amazes me how quickly life can be completely turned upside down and we feel as we are being tossed about in a storm like a rag doll, but turning to our Heavenly Father can calm me on the inside to deal with the chaos going on about me. To give me the words I would never have on my own, to give me love and compassion when I thought it was not possible, to increase my love ten fold, and to humble me more then the smallest piece of dirt. I hope through all I do, many mistakes and all, that I can try and learn from my difficult times and grow and not become bitter and hateful. I am grateful for the peace I feel in the center of the storm. I am grateful to have a husband to helps to keep me grounded and stand by my side. I am truly blessed to have a great husband by my side.

Somedays Life just gets to you...

And I had one of those days yesterday. ;) I never have enough hours or energy to get it all done, as I am sure everyone knows. I am not super women/mom and that is ok. After having a major melt down yesterday afternoon (after walking in to a house full of freshly cleaned rocks and every towel in the house dirty, after just washing. folding and putting them away) I realized that I NEED to chill. I have been trying to work on this concept for awhile, but it is not taking so well.
Sometimes life seem more then I can handle with non-stop doctor appointments, dentist appointments, church callings, cleaning, running, school projects, homework, grocery shopping and on and on... (you know the drill) So, I guess if my house doesn't get cleaned the way I want or at all this week, life will go on. I just wish I knew how or had the energy to do a little more and save my sanity, what little is left of it anyways.